I wish those " i love you's" you kept on saying was mine

I really don't know what's happening to me lately.. I'm talking about my heart. Yes, in my previous entries nabanggit ko nga na "medyo" in love ako pero... how can it survive if laging binabalewala yung pagmamahal ko sa kanya, pakiramdam nya isang malaking "biro" ang pag mamahal ko sa kanya. It's really fraustrating kasi hindi ko mapaabot sa kanya yung pag mamahal ko. I know it's quite too early para magkaganito ako sa kanya.. and to think hindi pa naman "kami" . Damn! isa pa yung problem na yun... I really don't think na magiging kami.. nakakahiya mang aminin pero she's already taken. Ang laki kong tanga. Just imagine I have fallen to a girl na may boyfriend na, although her bf is a bastard kasi lagi syang pinaiiyak at inaaway. Come to think of it bakit ba napupunta sa mga walang kwenta ang mga pinaka matitinong tao dito sa mundo? Ewan siguro ganun lang talaga magbiro ang tadhana. Sorry if wala ng kwenta itong article ko... wala talaga ako sa katinuan right now because of whats happening to me. Everyday I prayed that those "i love you's" that she keeps telling on her boyfriend was mine.. hindi ko matanggap na binabalewala nung guy yung girl na pinakamalaga sa akin.



*it happened a long time ago...