Spark of Hope

Siguro nga may mga bagay na mas dapat pag tuunan ng pansin tulad ng pamilya
(kahit wala ako nun) at mga kaibigan
(meron ba ako nun?)... Bakit ba buhay pa ako up to now? Yan ang laging sinisigaw ng boses sa utak ko until earlier natauhan ako sa isang... ahhh isang kaibigan. Weird pero it's been a while now since I last used that word pero as I was reading her message to me parang something had struck me. Parang alam ko na ang purpose ko thanks to her sabi niya kanina..

"i dont know pero misyon ko na ata ang umintindi at magshare ng point of views ko sa iba.."

Na realize ko that I've been doing the same thing this past few years. Sabi nga ng remaining friends ko that ako daw ang pillar of strength nila pag nag kaka problema sila. I know I have lots of problems but I have to be strong for my sisters (that's what I call my female friends). Masyado akong naging self-centered this past few months. Laging sariling problema ko na lang ang iniisip ko... paano na lang ang mga sisters ko. I'm not alone pala and I just realized that there are some people out there who cares for me and understands me. I know it's hard to be happy with all these problems that keeps on clinging to me like maggots and not to mention those weird voices deep within me telling me that " I'm a nobody" But for them I'll try to be happy. Thank you 'cause somehow I still have you.