12/31/08

I guess this is my final entry for this year and a few hours from now it’ll be a brand new year… a fresh new start, a second chance to change whatever fault we did this past year, a chance to start all over again… Actually I was having a hard time thinking what to write, it is as if my mind is being covered with problems
(What’s new eh lagi naman akong ganito).

Siguro if medyo matagal na kayong nag ta-tyagang mag basa nitong blog ko you probably know that medyo hindi naging maganada ang year na ito sa akin… and if I would describe this year in one word there’s no better word to describe what happened to me than the word “pain”… Oh my! Here I go again with my bitterness… (lol)
As I was looking back…. Madaming nangyari sa akin na medyo ‘di gaanong kagandahan, and most it na banggit ko na dito sa blog ko… hmmm come to think of it, lahat naman sinasabi ko dito eh. Anyway para sa mga late viewers ko… here are some of the things that change the way I think completely:

• Earlier this year one of my closest friend got pregnant, my God! She’s only 17 or 18 I think… but what the heck! She’s still a teenager, and if my memory serves me right nag try na siyang ipa-abort yung baby niya twice but still medyo matigas ang ulo ng bata at ayaw malaglag(man sa mommy niya)… I tried to convince her not to kill her own baby, ang thank God ‘cause natauhan din siya… and guess what, She’ll be expecting her baby this coming January and I think it’s a boy (This is one of the three babies that I saved this year pwede na ba akong maging councilor? hahaha)
• I have a friend who is actually married to the worst guy in this entire big blue planet called Earth… He would beat her up until mag mukhang mapa ng Pilipinas ang buong katawan niya dahil sa pasa, her F*&^%$# husband would lock her up in their house just to make sure that my friend wouldn’t go to the police or her relatives para mag sumbong… And the last he beat her up nasugod pa yung kawawang friend ko sa hospital dahil nabali yung arm niya and maybe your wondering ano ba ang pinag mulan ng away nila…. Dahil hindi daw ma asim yung sinigang na niluto ng kaibigan ko(I’m not kidding yun talaga yung reason nung pesteng asawa niya)…. Damn him! When I heard what happened to her nag decide na akong gumawa ng move, kung yung mga kamag-anak niya ay takot sa asawa niya pwes ako HINDI! I reported her hubby sa mga police and I’m happy to say that last month nakulong na yung guy…(“Mess my friends life and I’ll mess yours pretty bad” yan ang motto ko pagdating sa mga kaibigan ko)
• And here’s a quite disturbing one, I have this friend for quite sometime now and she’s your average girl with a not so average family. You see, she doesn’t have a dad anymore and her mom married again… She told me at first her relationship with her new dad was quite okay until one night. That F*&^%$# night, her step dad abuse her (sexually) damn it! When she told me this sobrang parang gusto kong pumatay ng tao, she’s more than a friend to me… she’s somewhat like a little sister to me and it break my heart nung nalaman ko yung ginagawa sa kanya ng halimaw na yun… and nung sinabi ko sa mom niya at first ‘di siya makapaniwala not until…. Nung nabuntis na yung friend ko ng sarili niyang step dad… I feel sorry for her and I feel bad about myself if only I have convinced her mom eh ‘di sana maayos pa ang buhay ng kaibigan ko… Sad to say but I failed as her friend

Tatlo lang yan sa mga nag pabago ng way of thinking ko pag dating sa life… Life’s unfair at given na yun… We are surrounded with pains and sadness and not to mention violence pa, but if hahayaan mong lamunin ka ng mga problems na ito walang mangyayari sa iyo…. Wait! Ako ba ito o may sumasanib na espirito sa akin at nagiging positive na ako? AHAHAHAHA!!! Anyway kidding aside, this past year masyado akong nag-dwell sa mga pains ko that I got from all those heart aches, masyado akong nag focus sa mga negative things that was happening to me that I failed to see the things that made me tick or should I say the nice things that I have… I failed to see all of you guys…

Habang nag e-emote ako dito sa bubong namin at nag star gazing ako, bigla akong napaisip bigla…. Wait! Hindi naman pala ako nag-iisa eh… Madami man umalis at nag paalam sa akin this year madami din naman na dumating… and here are some of them

Michelle a.k.a “khizmhet”
- She’s my girlfriend now at sobrang thankful ako for having her in my life…. Thankful ako sa love na binibigay niya sa akin kahit na parang madalas ay lagi akong malungkutin, salamat sa patience, salamat for fixing my heart, salamat because if I hadn’t met you siguro wala na ako at nag susulat pa din… I know ikaw na yung “kismet” ko and I swear I’m gonna love you, Happy ako kasi I’m going to start my “New Year” with you by my side. I love you so much.



PARA SA MGA ‘LIL SISTERS KO

Mikah a.k.a “kel” – Salamat sa lahat ng mga naitulong mo sa akin, salamat kasi tinatrato mo akong parang kuya mo talaga kahit ‘di pa tayo nag kikita, salamat for entrusting me with your secrets and everything that happened sa iyo…. I know malapit ka ng maging mommy next month and I know magiging good mother ka sa anak mo… basta if ever you needed someone to talk to I’m always here for you.. teka ninong ba ako ng magiging baby mo? Hahaha
Daenielle a.k.a “dae” – Siya na yata ang pinaka kikay, pinaka cute, pinaka matalinong kaibigan na nakilala ko… so far, 4 years ko na siyang friend and I’m glad kasi kahit madaming tao ang hindi nakaka unawa sa akin, she never failed to understand me, She would always cheer me up with her chain letters (yup you read it right! uso pa sa kanya yun). Anyway, I’m so blessed to have her as my ‘lil sister.


PARA SA MGA ADVISERS KO PAG MAY PROBLEMA AKO

Peachy a.k.a “creampuff ko” – Thanks sa mga times na lagi mo akong pinapasaya whenever I’m down before, sorry nga pala if biglang naputol yung communication natin… pero it doesn’t mean that I’m not thinking of you. You see guys; creampuff is I guess one of the sweetest girls you’ll probably meet in this life time… and kinda cool too… I really miss you creampuff…
Marga
– Thank you sa pakikinig sa mga wala kong kwentang problems, sa walang ka sawa sawang pag bibigay sa akin ng payo bout sa…(alam mo yun). Basta thankful ako kay mitch kasi pinakilala ka niya sa akin…. Smile ka lagi sweety
Roseanne a.k.a “adik ko” – Siya yung ka unaunahang naging friend ko dito sa blog community, Thankful ako for having her as my friend… Thanks sa walang kasawa sawang pag papayo mo sa akin ‘bout sa mga ka abnormalan ko sa buhay, salamat for keeping my feet on the ground whenever parang gusto ko ng mag laho… salamat sa mga sermon mo sa akin… I’m glad ‘because I have you as my friend…
Joan – Isa pa rin ito sa mga kakaunting tao na patuloy pa rin sa pag tyatyaga sa pag pagpapayo sa akin… and I’m happy for that, she would always make sure that mapapatawa niya ako after kong ibuhos sa kanya ang lahat ng problems ko and I really like the way she cracked those jokes on me para lang mapangiti niya ako.

Salamat nga pala sa mga tao na dumadalaw dito sa blog ko, thank you kasi kahit medyo weird at emotional ang mga entries some of you never get tired of reading it… Actually wala naman talaga akong talent sa pag susulat dito lang talaga ako natutong mag sulat. Kaya I’m thankful kasi you accepted me here…

4 comments:

Dhianz said...

have a blessed new year big bro! GODBLESS! -ur lil sis di =)

January 1, 2009 at 10:48 AM
cybercesz said...

Wow, nakakaiyak naman 'tong post mo...I feel sorry dun sa friend mo na na abuse, grabe yun. Happy New Year and thanks for being my blogmate at kapatid na rin sa blog, kahit di pa kita nakikita, I feel close to you.

January 1, 2009 at 12:22 PM
Francesca said...

so many silliness in these world, that we sometimes wonder, if it will end,

but it will end.
theres justice.
and theres God to make it happen.

im coming from veta blog. cheers.

January 1, 2009 at 4:06 PM
Anonymous said...

tenk u for special mention...haha,aUn...smile always...(^-^)

January 1, 2009 at 8:55 PM
 


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