Break ups

Breaking up is hard to do lalo na pag mahal mo pa yung tao… lalo na pag for the longest time ay siya lang ang lagi mong iniisip, yung tipo bang sa kanya mo lang pinaikot ang mundo mo… for me it’s not about kung gaano kayo nag tagal… for me it’s how deep your relationship is… yung iba nga dyan taon na ang binibilang nila pero parang ang babaw pa rin ng relationship nila unlike yung iba months lang pero daig pa nila ang nanay ng gf or bf nila sa dami ng nalalaman nila about their love one…

Pero tulad ng sinasabi ng marami… nothing lasts forever… Actually umaasa pa rin akong mali itong kasabihan na ito ‘cause if this is true, ano pa ang silbi natin dito? Bakit pa tayo kailangan mag mahal if sa banding huli ay masasaktan din tayo? Bakit kailangan natin ipag laban ang feelings natin for that person if in the end mawawala din siya sa atin? Why and why the heck it has to be always me? Yan ang tanong ko lagi sa sarili ko?

When the time comes na kailangan niyo ng maghiwalay… isn’t it hard to let go kahit siya pa rin yung mahal mo? At kahit isang bundok ang laki ng idinulot niyang pain sa heart mo still siya pa rin ang gusto mong makasama, pero all things aren’t permanent… It’s not about letting go that bothers us, it’s not about the pains, what hurts us the most is the fact that we’re gonna face life alone without her/him by our side to give us the strength and love… it’s about facing every damn day knowing that he’s/ she’s not yours anymore, it’s about facing the cold reality that wala na siya at maybe for good… and it sucks kapag ikaw mismo ang may dahilan kung bakit kayo nag kahiwalay…

You know what, I’ve been in that situation a couple of times and it’s really frustrating… It’s hard to accept that I blew up a really perfect relationship… well, almost perfect pala we also have our ups and downs like all of you guys out there. Pasensya na if I’m going nowhere dito sa sinusulat ko… Alam niyo naman na outlet ng pains and sadness ang pagsusulat ko dito sa blog ko ‘cause if I don’t write baka laman na ako ng pahayagan kinabukasan it’s just that may na alala lang ako kagabi kaya ko ito naisulat bigla…

Anyway, my point is that whatever your having right now with your special someone… learn to appreciate everything about her/him… try to love them more and give some extra effort sa relationship nyo… Don’t let your communication fade and please be true. Kasi if you do all of this things ma le-lessen yung chance na mag kahiwalay kayo… and maybe someday you could prove to me that there is such thing as “forever…”

*para sa lahat ng dumaan sa buhay ko salamat