Happy ba Talaga ang New Year Nyo?

Happy New Year… Yan lagi ang binabanggit ng lahat ng tao kahapon, lahat nag tatawanan, mag kakasama lahat ang mga pamilya, nag kakainan ng mga handa nila, mga party dito at party dun, mga inuman, bigayan ng mga regalo, at kahit saan ka tumingin ay iisa lang ang makikita mo sa mukha nila…. Lahat sila mga naka ngiti at tila ba parang mga walang problema sa buhay… Ang sarap nilang pag masdan ‘di ba?

If I’m gonna ask you kung sino ang kasama mo kagabi? I’m pretty sure that lahat kayo will unanimously say that you are with your family and friends… That’s good… buti pa kayo…

Last night I spend the last day of 2008 and the first day of this year alone… it’s just me with the statue of Ronald McDonald all night long ‘till the break of dawn… I got no one to spend New Year’s Eve so I decided to spend it in McDonalds… By the way fave ko talaga sa McDo kaya yun ang napili kong puntahan(hahahaha) Anyway… I was greeted with the usual

“Good Evening sir may I take your order?”

“I’ll be having one cheeseburger, 3 large fries, 1 large sprite and 2 caramel sundaes” I said while staring at the cashier blankly…

“Sir you ordered… 1 Cheeseburger value meal with 3 large fries and 2 caramel sundaes. Is that all sir?”

“That’ll be all”

“Sir is that for take out or for dine in”

“Dine in”

After I paid it I sat in my fave spot by the window and started to think… Why does it has to be like this every New Year’s Eve? Bakit ba kailangang ganito ang New Year ko? I’m sure mag re-react na naman kayo at sasabihin na “it’s your choice Saul kung bakit ka nag iisa kagabi!!!!” Well actually I wasn’t given any choice rather than this. Here’s my situation, wala akong family (Ay meron pala it’s just that malayo lang sila sa akin at broken famly kami remember), wala akong friends… hmmm may mga friend’s nga pala ako it’s just that ‘di daw nila ako pwedeng ampunin last night kasi family gathering daw yung New Year’s Eve and sad to say I’m not one of them (apology accepted) and although may gf ako I wasn’t expecting na aampunin niya ako kagabi kasi medyo hindi kami “legal” at okay lang sa akin yun kasi nasamahan naman niya ako kagabi kahit thru text lang.

Napansin ko lang yung mga tao sa paligid ko, sobrang saya nila at habang pinag mamasdan ko sila parang unti-unti akong nakakaramdam ng pag ka selos… siguro pinag tatawanan niyo na ako now pero okay lang yun. Nagpapatunay lang yun na hindi niyo dinadanas yung loneliness at pangungulila sa mga mahal niyo sa buhay and that’s good. Pero sa mga katulad ko na nag iisa sa mga ganitong occasion ramdam na ramdam yung pagiging lonely and to tell you the truth it’s not that easy. Paano kaya yung mga nasa ibang bansa? Paano kaya yung mga OFWs? Paano sila nakaka survive? Pero I’m sure may kapwa Pilipino silang kasama now… Mahirap talaga yung nalalayo ka sa mga mahal mo sa buhay…

I finished eating at around 12:25… it’s time to go home… habang naglalakad ako pauwi I found myself thinking about this brand new year… what’s in store for me this year? I hope whatever it is sana mag enjoy ako. I hope that next year may makasama na ako sa 1^st day ng taon ko…

*Happy New Year guys…