Wouldn’t it be nice if there is someone who would care for you, love you, or even hold you tuwing nalulungkot ka at nag-iisa? Wouldn’t it be nice na may nakakasama ka tuwing sad and feeling blue ka? Wouldn’t it be nice if there is someone out there who really do anything just to make you smile? Ang sarap siguro ng ganoong feeling… yung feeling that somehow you belong to someone…someone who cares for you, someone who loves you, someone who is willing to go heaven and hell just to see you smiling…
Earlier while I was bumming around sa mall I saw this young couple who is very much in love sa isa’t-isa…I thought it would be nice to check them out so I sat beside them. As I was watching them I saw them doing those P.D.A stuff… They were holding each other’s hand so tight and talking to each other as if sampung taon silang hindi nag kita.. Get the picture? I watch them silently wishing that I was that guy… I can’t help but to feel kinda lonely. “When was the last time somebody did that to me?”
Damn! I can’t even remember when (sucks!!). Ang sarap sigurong may kayakap pag nag-iisa, may nakakausap pag nalulungkot at may nahahawakan pag tila ba ang lahat ay iniwan ka. Pero ang lahat ng ito ay para sa akin hanggang pangarap na lang… Simula pa lang nung bata ako lagi na lang akong iniiwan ng mga taong pinakamamahal ko, ewan ba! ‘Di naman ako masamang tao it’s just that before I get too attached sa isang tao… lagi na lang kinukuha siya at inilalayo sa akin. I guess I was destined to be always left behind.
All I wanted is to feel loved and be loved… yun lang! Mahirap ba yun? Gusto ko lang maranasan yung sinasabi nilang bliss na nakukuha kapag may nag mamahal sa iyo. Napapa-isip tuloy ako… bakit ba ang hirap makakita ng taong mag pupuno sa heart mo ng kind of love you are looking for… and sometimes when you do find that person… and after mong ibigay ang lahat-lahat sa kanya you would soon realize that isa lang pala siya sa stepping stone mo towards sa true love mo… pero bakit ganun? Bakit kailangan mo pang masaktan para lang makita mo yung tunay na ugali nya? Bakit? Minsan nakakasawa na din yung ganito tayo palagi… yung iniiwan ng mga taong pinakamamahal natin.
After a couple of minutes of staring at them.. They suddenly stood up and left me all alone sa bench… haaay pati ba naman dito sa upuan iniiwan akong mag-isa.